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Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
9:45 am
i need to get back on track. how did i get so far from where i started? what's wrong with me? why can't i help myself and do the things i know i need to do?

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Monday, November 27th, 2006
11:07 pm


I love these 2 girls. they're amazing.



hi. my name's sarah. i'm a c.h.a.m.p.

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Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
5:44 pm - tats biotch...


those are the 2 i already have...i'm getting another one, i just don't know where and i don't know when...quick survey:
a)top of foot
b)inside of wrist
c)ankle

where should i get my next tattoo?

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Friday, September 8th, 2006
11:56 pm - my world still revolves around you.
i have a problem. everytime i like a guy, the second he starts liking me back or starts expressing interest in a relationship i suddenly get freaked out and lose all interest in him. lately, this has happened twice and three times throughout the summer. all of the guys it's happened with are amazing and i'm an idiot to not want to be with them, but everytime they start liking me i start comparing. is our relationship going to be as good as his and i's? is he going to be as sweet as him? am i going to fall for him the same way i did before? if not, then why even bother? he and i have the most amazing relationship ever and i ruined it and i'm haunted everyday with the realization that if i wasn't a selfish bitch we might still be in love and happy and i wouldnt be suffering. i know, it's all my fault and i need to get over it already. believe me, i want to get over you, i really do, i'm trying to date other people, but none of them match you. none of them come close to you. you and i were perfect togehter and for some stupid reason i let you go. i've realized the hard way that you have to pay for your actions, whether it be negative or positive. and everyday i wish i could go back in time to the day i met the other guy and make it never happen. or at least not become as close to him as i did. i don't deserve you anymore, i know that, and maybe that's the reason i keep backing off when a guy shows interest, cause knowing what i did to you makes me realize that i don't deserve a guy even half as great as you. maybe i'm just overanalyzing everything. i just don't know. when i start thinking about relationships with anyone other than you, i realize i just can't do it. you are too good to forget and noone will ever live up to you.

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Monday, August 14th, 2006
3:01 am
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Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
4:07 pm
things are different than i expected them to be. i don't know if i like it or not, i'm just trying to have fun with what is going on right now.

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Saturday, July 8th, 2006
9:18 pm
i feel like i mean nothing to you anymore. we used to be so close and now i barely remember what your voice sounde like. i miss you more than anything, and to have you again would be perfection. i messed up. i'm sorry. i need you. more than anything in the world i want to go back to a year ago. i want to go back to when things were ok and you and i were happy. you've changed. i've changed. i still love you. i still love everything about you. i'm an idiot.

current mood: depressed

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Friday, April 21st, 2006
3:27 am
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=)

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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
9:59 pm - update?
i dont want to know your name...i just want to BANG BANG BANG!!!!

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Monday, November 14th, 2005
12:23 am
it's so amazing how much i realized i take for granted. i went to play linda this weekend with my good friend from pennsylvania and she just went on and on about how beautiful is was, and it made me realize, wow, this really is a beautiful place! i never realized how the palm trees grow in the water, or how the alligators just lay out for hours at a time, sunning themselves to get warm and how amazing that is to other people. she had so much fun and enjoyed it so much, little old oviedo, and it just made me realize how much i really missed it, how amazing it really is. i'm never taking anything for granted again.

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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
5:14 pm
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragrah on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) at what people remember about you.

current mood: contemplative

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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
7:58 pm
eh, it happens

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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
7:09 pm
it's funny, if i had actually done that, i would want credit for it...but i didnt, and all the pieces arent fitting together. someone's lying their ass off...

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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
1:04 pm
i went to an orgy last night, it was pretty sweet

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Monday, October 3rd, 2005
12:53 am

it's all so confusing, when you think about it, how everything is going to turn out. i was thinking about my future, and i have no clue what's gonna happen and i hate that, i hate not having control, i hate having to be submissive and give someone(or in this case, something) complete and utter control. i'm just so confused...about everything

in other news, i play lacrosse now

 

i heart fsu!

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Saturday, September 17th, 2005
6:47 pm - do it...you won't
reply with your name and i'll:

1. respond with something random about you.
2. tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. tell you Something I hate about you.
4. say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. tell you my first memory of you.
6. tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. ask you something that i've always wondered about you.
8. and! if i do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

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Friday, September 16th, 2005
9:25 pm - probably
i'm probably so sober right now it should be a crime...someone get me some alcohol!

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Sunday, September 11th, 2005
10:15 pm
fuck this, fuck all of this

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Friday, July 22nd, 2005
1:37 pm
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Friday, March 11th, 2005
11:45 am
have i ever mentioned i have the cutest boyfriend in the whole fucking school? cuz i really do...he's hott.

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